What attracts one person to another? When I am talking about attraction, I don’t just mean the pull between lovers, I am talking about the pull between any 2 random people. Why is it that sometimes you meet someone, maybe even for a short while, and you think that you have known that person forever and feel an immediate connection to him/her? It’s not where you are from, how you look, what your age or sex or religion is. It’s how you think, how you see, how you feel. Recently I read in a friends blog “Enjoyment exists only among like minded people”. And that says it all. You can probably have a good time freaking out with almost anyone, but its only when you are in the company of like minded people that you truly enjoy yourself to the fullest.

When we were kids, my parents used to make me and my brother do to all weddings and parties and we used to keep cribbing that we will get bored as we will not have anyone of our own age there. Now that I think about it, I see that most of my real close friends, with whom I can talk very openly are older/younger than me. I realize that age really doesn’t matter. But then again, someone once told me, “You may be 24 years old but you talk like a 40 year old person.” I am still trying to figure out if it was a compliment or not.

There are a lot of people around me who think we are friends, but for me they are just mere acquaintances. I am not trying to put them down but just trying to say that just because I spend so much time with them does not necessarily mean I feel connected to them. Then there are some people, with whom I felt that connection from the moment I interacted with them for the first time.

Its so strange, the way the nature works! Strange how you can be a stranger to a person you spend most your time with and be the best friend of a person you meet just once. I hope I find my soul mate in one of these best friends.

The power of music!!!

"Music is what feelings sound like" How true is that...I don't think there is a single person on this planet who is left untouched by the beauty of it. It is everywhere, from the moment you wake up till the time you go off to sleep, it surrounds you wherever you go. There is something about it which touches your soul deep inside and brings you to life!
I remember 2 weeks ago I had gone with my friends to this place for dinner. I had had a real tiring week, lack of sleep and loads of work. I was wondering if I could survive the night. They had a live band playing there. Not much, just 2 guys, one on the keyboard and the other on the guitar. But they were so alive! And although the crowd out there wasn't much responsive we had a blast! 3 continuous hours of non stop singing (and a bit of a dancing). The songs ranged from old country to soft romantics to soft rock! By the time I left from there it felt as if someone has infused life back in me. I felt so alive!
Exactly one week later, last Thursday, I went to a music concert. It was a western classical music performance by a group of French artists. Just 4 people, one on Cello, one on the Piano, one on Violin and one on the Viola. But they created magic that night! The music was so soulful. There were times when I had tears in my eyes, and some other times I just sat there wishing for someone to hold on to as I listen to it. It touched you right inside, and as the tempo rose you could actually feel yourself holding your breath. It felt as if I was watching a live opera or a play, tragic at times and sometimes playful. It was something I had never heard before. Yes, I listen to Mozart and Bach tracks, but live music! Now that is another story itself!
Sometimes I try to imagine the world without music and all I can feel is that it would be so empty. So lifeless. All I can say while ending is:
"Thank you for the music, the songs I am singing.
Thanks for all, the joy they are bringing.
Who can live without it, I ask in all honestly, what would life be?
Without a song or dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me" :)

Moments

Every once in a while, life gives us some moments, something so special, its there in front of you for a short while and if you dont grab it then, its gone, lost forever and you are left with a little regret that you let it go. You wish for them to come back, but they dont. Its like opportunity is hammering on your door and you just close your eyes and go to sleep.
Something happened to me a while back. We were strolling around in a mall, we came out of a shop and the moment we stepped out the familiar tune of a hindi song started on the music player all around. The song was a waltz song. The moment i heard that and saw the empty floor all around me the thought that popped up in my head "I so want to dance!" Before I could say anything he turned to me and with a smile on his face asked me if I wanted to dance. I was floored and all I could do was stare at him. But for some reason i panicked and said no and pulled him along outside. Till this day I regret it. Till this day I wish that I could go back to that moment in time and say "Yes! Yes I want to dance with you!" *Sigh* but I can't. I let the magic slip from my hands.
These moments are meant for our hearts. They come from the heart and are directed towards our heart. In times like these if we let our minds come in between and analyze it, we will loose them. All I want to say is, if you are blessed with some moment like this in your life, dont think! Dont think about what someone would say or what they would think about you. Just grab it, grab it with both your hands and revel in the joy you feel. Enjoy every second of it. They will never come back, you can probably stage the whole thing again but the essence behind it would be lost. These things are not staged, they just come. Recognize them! Cherish them!

The other day I was chatting with a friend of mine and we started talking about relationships. He said to me, ‘Relationships should be nurtured, like a baby.’
What a simple way of describing something that most people don’t understand. How many times a relationship falls apart because the people involved in it didn’t spend enough time working on it, didn’t give it much importance? I am not just talking about romantic relationship here; it could be a relationship between friends, parents and children with anyone. They all need to be treated with the same respect and given, maybe not equal, but some importance.
When a baby is growing up, his each and every movement is watched closely, everything that can hurt him is moved out of the way, and everyone tries their best to always keep him smiling and laughing. Everyone takes care of him, love him, and protect him. Why? Because, babies are fragile and delicate.
The same goes for our relationships, they are so fragile that a small shred of mis-understanding, un-certainty can break it into tiny un-repairable shreds. In case of babies, everyone around them can see how delicate and how fragile they are and which is why they all rush to make sure that he is happy and taken care of. In case of relationships, it is not something that we can see, but something we need to feel. Something we need to understand. But most of us don’t and which is why many a times these relationships go for a toss. They are taken for granted and then gradually fade away.
People go running behind lucrative careers and trying to make as much money as possible in this short span of life. There is nothing wrong in that. Nothing wrong in wanting a comfortable lifestyle but in wanting that lifestyle people forget what is the one most important thing in their life. It is relationships that surround them and the people who are with them. When I talk about relationships I do not only mean the one that you have with the other people but also the one that you have with yourself. I believe that unless you are at peace with yourself there is no way you can have a harmonious relationship with anyone else around you.
But then I think for some reason everyone wants to see something tangible in front of their eyes in order to believe it or take care of it. “Seeing is believing” cannot be applied in every situation now can it? I guess these days the hopeless romantic in me has awoken again. It had taken a back seat for quite some time. But now that it is up and running, I have started given these things a lot of thoughts again. About why is it that people put money over their relations? Why do people take others for granted? When I talk about romance I don’t just mean the ‘girl-boy’ thing. It could be with anyone. Who says there cannot be romance between you and your friend? It is there everywhere, all around us, all we have to do is open ourselves up to it and feel it.
I am a huge fan of regency romances. All the courting and ball room dancing in the Victorian times. Every time I read any such book or watch any such movie, it makes me wish immediately that I was back in those times being courted with poetry, with music, with dancing. Yes, I do admit that the lives back then must have been pretty boring compared to what we have now, but boy all those fine gentlemen with their charms, the hand written letters *sigh*. In those days they believed in the romance, in the magic behind it. Now it has slowly faded away and I am afraid that it will die soon. I know I know I am a huge ambassador for change, and keep saying that change is the one constant thing in our life and we not only have to accept it but celebrate it. But one can still wish that some things remain the same through the times right? Even if its in dreams.

Today i was feeling very sleepy at work..three nights of not sleeping properly had taken its toll finally! So i decided to leave half an hour early and go for a walk in the garden. Just me and my music. I usually walk around with my head bent and lost in my own thoughts today was no different. But at one point i suddenly looked up, as if some force is asking me to. And the sight was something no words can describe. I tried to capture it in the camera but i dont think this picture can do any justice to it. Then i remembered that its full moon today. I must have seen it so many times in my 23 years yet it leaves me with a sense of wonder. There is something about it which is magical, and cannot be expressed. Am glad i decided to come out today :-)

Recently I read the following quote, “Life is a process of becoming, and a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death.” How true is this! Basically, in a simple language what it means that in order to live this life you have to accept the fact that there will be constant changes and you have to accept them. Not just blindly accept but learn to celebrate, to enjoy those changes.

At some point we all look back and see how it was earlier and miss what we had then but there are times when we fail to see what we have now. I always look back to my college days and wish that they had never gone away. But what I have now is not bad either. Yes, those sweet memories still remain and I miss the friends I had then. We all have our separate lives now and we have all moved on.

It is not easy to let go completely of what you had. The bittersweet memories will always remain. But that also does not mean that we have to live in our past. We have to learn to move on and to embrace new things. Unless we do that we will never be able to grow up.

There have recently been a lot of changes in my life and there are times when I look back at what my life was 2 months ago and how it is now. I miss a lot of things which I had earlier but then again I wouldn’t give up what I have now for anything.

I think more than the situations, we miss the people who were around us at that time. Some people come in our lives for a short time; they teach us so much and then slowly go away. We don’t like those changes; we want things to go back to the way they were. We want those people back. But in this wanting and longing, we forget to cherish the good times we had with them. Instead we keep concentrating on what we could have had more. It is hard to let go, I know. I have said good bye to so many friends. But I also know that no matter what I do those times will never come back. All I can do is close my eyes and think about those days, and let my mind wander to those places with those people. It never fails to bring a smile to my face. 

The other day in office we were all seeing a forwarded mail which contained some pics of an upcoming movie called “Dostana”. The movie is about two guys who pretend to be gay so that they can get to live in the apartment they want. As we were watching the pics, someone said “There was a time when parents used to worry about their sons marrying a white female when they went abroad, now they would probably worry about their son hooking up with a guy.”

I got real mad when I heard this. I asked them why it matters who a person decides to spend the rest of their lives with as long as they are happy. They replied saying that it is “un-natural” and it is due to so much hype created around the issue many people are turning towards it. I felt like screaming then. It is not as if a person gets up one morning and decides “Oh you know what I think I am going to be gay!” That is not how it works! We are attracted to the people of the opposite sex, which is natural to us; just like that there are some people who are attracted to persons of the same sex. That is natural to them. Where does the “un-natural” part come in this? I can never understand how some people can be so closed minded about certain issues. For them what they believe is right and everything else is all crap! I just wish people would open up their minds and hearts a little bit more.

That day I got so frustrated trying to talk to them about it. Then I realised that I am fighting a loosing battle. They had their minds made up and nothing that anyone can say would penetrate through that wall and make them see reason. But then again, that is their opinion. I am not saying that they should change their thinking just because I said something once, I just wish they would try and broaden their horizons and see that the world is not limited inside a nutshell..it is so huge..so vast…that it can never be limited…

Gee I am not sure if I am making any sense…I am half asleep over here..just had to put this down tho.. yawn…